What Inspires Me……………..

Old Friend

 I have had some time to reflect on my past
 I am very grateful to you for being in my life
 understanding that my freedom within our relationship was very important to me

 It was your friendship that gave me security when I did not see that
 I could stand on my own
 because of my childhood and then marriage to my ex
 it was because of this that I moved in with you

 At the time we met
 I did not believe that I could really be me
My family and others were right
I thought, leaving me to believe they knew what
was best for me
through my time with you
I learned that I did not need to be rescued anymore
because I was not broken

 I was confused and did not understand I was
 fine believing in myself and doing what was
 right for me
 we are different people
 and yet we were to be together for several seasons

 I only wish you the best
 I hope you find everything you desire in life and live
 Your life fully each and everyday
 I will always remember the times we had together with
 Such gratitude

 I realize that I used to get upset with you in the past few years
 As there seems to be a part of you that can not
 Accept me as I am today
I believe that your understanding of my world does not work
 With your belief system
 And I am ok with that
 I also know that all is in divine order and it was to be this way

 Please know that you are an amazing man
 And I am very grateful that we journeyed as long as we did
 And that we can still connect when we do
 Please do not think that you did anything wrong
 I realize some time ago that the man who I connected to was to come into my life
To have the two of us move forward with our own lives
 I was never to be with him
it was for me to fully embrace myself
loving myself for who I am, just the way I am

 I was to step up and be the me I am today
 And if we had not moved to Portland
 And I had not taking the job selling 
Something else would of happened for us to get the message
 And move in our own directions
 To honor our independent lives

 We came together when I thought I was broken
 Only to find out that I was never broken
 Just learning how to be me

 Thank you for carefully nudging me to find myself
 And giving me a safe environment to do it in 
When I was not feeling safe in this world

 I hope that if we meet up in the future
 You can accept me as I am
 As I accept you as you are

 Thank you for being my friend when I was feeling lost

 I am forever grateful

Now I am moving forward with my life
Blessed to be me
living in gratitude everyday for everything I am
and everything I have in my life…….
Friends, family, Love, Happiness,

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