Learning Curve

For the first time
I am living my life
For myself

I have lived for others
For so many years
I feel that if i am to be graded
Then, I desire it to be
on the curve

Feeling awkward
Not understanding how
To play in this new field

There appear to be
No rules
No lies
No dishonesty

Openness is the truth
We are living by
Respect and integrity
Flow with ease and grace

My mind gets all confused
Waiting for
Looking for
Expecting something to go array

Truth is my heart
Knows the truth
I feel this different kind of
Relationship
Within in the essence of my soul

My learning curve is:
Love
Accepting
Receiving
Love